Thank God....with lot of inhibitions and confusions I sent my kid to school with my hubby. After sometime when I got the call from my hubby, saying that he left my kid there crying,my heart ripped apart. He talked to me as if I sent my kid to a jail or something.I felt really bad. But somehow,I made myself more strong. I didn't go to his school to pick him before the class time.

I went to the school with my heart in my hand.But when I saw him playing on the swing....I felt so thankful to God.Oh God,thank u.

Don't know what to say.For last couple of weeks I am having very painful experience with my kid.Started sending my 3 year old baby to play school.He likes going to school,but he wants me to be with him in the class.Tried to leave him,but when I see him crying,my whole courage drains out of me.
I am confused whether to send him or not? But if I don't send him to school he will get more closer to me.Its like destroying his future,character,independence etc...thats what everybody is telling me. I don't want to see his tears.I can't stand that. God,help me please.....

What is LOVE?

There is nothing called love in this world. Its just a question of existence...question of survival.....If you believe in 'true love',then u r a fool.
Parents got some responsibilities to their kids.Like that kids got some responsibilities to their parents. Husband has got duties to wife...same with wife tooo....So its just doing ur duties and expecting the same from the people around you.....So what is LOVE? And where is LOVE?

Feels like a little lost.....Too many reasons. My kid was not well and he made me so tensed for couple of days,gave me sleepless nights and breathless moments....Thank God,at last that is over. He is back to normal...
I am not getting organised,I think. Everything was going well. But suddenly something went wrong and my mind is so disturbed. What to do? Solution is within me. Only thing is that I need to dig it out.....

Not getting any snappy headlines.....

Was a tad tied up with some of my activities...which was waiting for my attention for many years. Thank God,I am trying to save some energy and time for those things which I liked to do.....Atlast,I am on the track. But few other things are pending. Getting lot of fat accumulation at some parts of my body. I need to do something to reduce it.Otherwise I will look old in few years (haha ,not ready to be called aunty)

Zzzzzzzz.....

Nothing to write today....Just blank.
i was just thinking abt my future? What is my future plan? What is that I want to do?
1. I would like to try some activities like painting,stitching or designing......
What is stopping me from doing this?
1.Time
2.My baby
3.Money
If I wait for the opportunity to come to me,it will never happen. I have to try it out. As my friend said if u want to do something,do it. Things will automaticlly fall in place.

Mixture of feelings...

Don't know what to say. Happy,sad,condemned.....its a mixture of different feelings.
Happy because we are having a very stable life. New home,new atmosphere....I am loving it.
Went to Cinemax to watch a movie. Nice experience,though had gone through pain.
Sad because seeing the people around me. All going abroad to different countries to celebrate vaccation. Including the person who made our life a hell. God is with bad people it seems.....Or is it because we are not smart? We helped people.We tried to make things go smooth. But what we got in return is bull shit. So I think we are unfit for this world.